Hi close friends,
I hope everyone had a restful holiday break. During mine, I saw a total of three movies in theater and one movie on the plane, which feels excessive, but ‘tis the season to be cozy.
I watched…
🌕🌗🌑🌑🌑 Am I OK? (2022)
🌕🌕🌕🌕🌗 All We Imagine as Light (2024)
🌕🌕🌕🌕🌕 Wicked (2024) (Re-watched)
🌕🌕🌕🌕🌑 A Complete Unknown (2024)
And I still want to watch…
Babygirl (2024)
Dìdi (2024)
Anora (2024)
This past year was my first year trying to write more consistently on Substack. I’m so appreciative for all 25 of you who have taken the time to subscribe along the way (that’s enough well-read people to throw a banging house party!), and I hope to bring you even more thoughtful and fun work in the coming months.
At the beginning of last year, I waxed poetic about how I was a bit jaded trying to come up with grand new years resolutions. Despite my despondency, I accomplished so much that I am proud of myself for: living alone for the first time, working for a full year as a creative, and writing my way out of a rut and for myself again.
I’m starting off this year quiet and focused back on the basics of building a healthy and happy life for myself. Sitting in a hotel lobby in Nashville about to start my holiday break and getting ready to attend my friend’s wedding the next day, I found out my contract at work is not getting renewed, and is ending in January. My lease in New York is up at the end of March, and I have some big decisions awaiting me.
Although it’s a destabilizing feeling not knowing what’s next, I know this was a push I needed to re-calibrate. Maybe there’s something to this whole Saturn return thing, because after turning 28 in November, I’ve been starting to think more long-term about what I truly and deeply want in life. I wonder whether I am really committed to making it happen or even cut out to be an artist. My parents are getting older, and so am I, which freaks me out. My friendships have changed — new ones budding, old ones strengthened, and others lost.
Yes, I’m being vulnerable on main. Forgive me. But I hope it brings you some peace to know that while I may appear in your inbox each week intellectualizing about the latest books and internet trends and world events, I’m still just a girl figuring things out for myself. I don’t always have answers, but I do have my keyboard and this community, and for that I am so grateful.
Thank you for making my 2024 a bit brighter. Happy new year.
